Blogging-what’s the point?


Why should I blog?  I have said that I blog because it is therapeutic- True.  I have said that I blog because it is a distraction; a way to get outside of myself and reflect from a more detached perspective- Also true. But I think the main reason I blog is to hold myself accountable to the reflections and perspectives that I have written down and made public.  Rereading my posts I realize that I occasionally have a need to preach to the choir – a one person choir.  I can see what begins to happen when expectations are not fulfilled. “Shouldn’t I be having less pain and more energy three weeks post-surgery?  What’s going on? No one told me that I would feel this lousy. After all I’m only two weeks from starting chemo which is more and longer-lousy according to general opinion.”

Neurobiology helps me understand what’s going on. Serotonin, one of our brains “feel-good neurotransmitters” is working overtime to contribute to the healing of an injured body; but that means less serotonin to help out with positive mood regulation.

There is also the difficulty of separating out emotional responses from spiritual truths. There have been signs along the way to assure me that God is with me (coincidences?) but how quickly those begin to feel less meaningful when the pain continues and is accompanied by lack of energy or sleep. Seeing myself cranky with husband, “David extraordinaire”, is disquieting and unfair to him.  At least it gives me practice saying two spiritually important words in life: “I’m sorry.”

There is also the matter of feeling grateful for the instances of good news along the way and the overabundance of loving encouragement from so many. I love the gratefulness that comes in emotional waves of misty eyed undeserved appreciation.

But there are those times of feeling grateful and remembering God’s comforting presence that are experienced  more like a tight grip on a lifesaving ring.

Oh, what fickle creatures we are (I am)!  But I’m not going to beat up myself too much. Here’s an interesting verse to help me through these less-than-perfect behaved and felt times:   “If we are faithless He remains faithful for He cannot deny himself.”  2 Timothy 2:13

post script: next blog to be more upbeat and coming soon- I am a- feelin’ it!



2 thoughts on “Blogging-what’s the point?

  1. Anonymous April 13, 2014 / 9:57 pm

    Oh, Dear Dona, your observations are so honest and real. I am glad you’re not beating yourself up too much. Sometimes it’s so much harder to extend grace to ourselves than to others, isn’t it? I am feeling like a really bad friend lately, but hope you had a great time with your old friend this week. Thank you for taking time to blog. I know I am blessed by you. Sue

  2. Dan April 16, 2014 / 4:10 am

    Dear Dona,

    What’s the point?, That’s a darn good question, you have your reasons, but why do I read your posts? Lots of reasons actually:

    -to see how you are doing 🙂
    -to maintain the prayers that I do for you, and a lot of other folks too. A lot has happened to me over the past 7 years whereby my communication with God and Jesus has dramatically increased.
    -to be reminded of how fragile we really are and the relatively short time we have on this planet. Cherish it, Love it.
    -to revert back to you in some of my emails and let you know there are others “out there” pulling for you.
    -it’s a reminder for me to ask my lovely bride when the last time was she had a mammogram.
    -for me to be reminded, we never know when our life will be challenged by the unexpected.
    -to read and revert back to you and encourage you to keep reflecting, praying, and blogging 🙂

    Take care, and stay strong Dona! And Hug Dave 🙂

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